SLEEPING MY WAY TO THE BOTTOM
One Young Woman’s Transformational Journey From Hollywood Through India
Living in Los Angeles Carina is trying to pursue her life long dream of becoming an actress, but mostly she's caring for her elderly father and making good use of her college education by working long hours in short skirts in night clubs and trendy West Hollywood eateries. Shortly after turning twenty five she's nearing the end of her rope when an old friend comes to visit, bringing drama and excitement in her wake. Spending the summer dodging paparazzi and flying around in private jets, things finally seem to be going Carina’s way until it all ends disastrously. Realizing this isn't the life she wants, or the person she wants to be, she's determined to change her life and become someone she can be proud of. In a leap of faith she sells all of her belongings and travels by herself to India. Leaving behind everything she thought she was, she goes on a transformational journey into the unknown, rediscovering a sense of magical possibility as the Universe guides her on her journey. Along the way she discovers what she's made of and meets a man who could be her soulmate if only she can let go and surrender to the fall.
EXCERPT: "When I moved to Los Angeles, I did everything I could to learn how to succeed at the game of being a woman. I wanted so much to play the game well. I believed if I could learn to get what I wanted out of men and get ahead in my career, it would say something about my value— that I would be a successful woman. I knew better, but it didn’t stop me from pursuing this visceral need to be the hot girl— the girl who knew how to wrap men around her finger, who received expensive gifts and vacations, who became a successful and desirable actress. Except since I based my sense of self worth on the significance of the men I was dating, I never succeeded, because I was so scared of upsetting or offending them I usually handed over exactly what they wanted with minimal resistance. Now here I was in India once again learning how to play a game, but at last it was one that was worthy of me…."